拉古尼塔斯的冥想
拉古尼塔斯的冥想
罗伯特·哈斯 林木译
所有新的思考都关乎失去。
这一点，它与所有旧的思考如出一辙。
比如这样的观念：每一个具体之物都会抹去
一个普遍观念发光的清晰性。那只
小丑脸的啄木鸟啄着那棵死去的黑桦
雕塑般的树干，因为它的在场，
成就了从一个未分化之光的
最初世界中悲剧性坠落。或者另一种看法，
因为在这个世界上并不存在某一个事物
正好对应那丛纠缠的黑莓荆棘，
一个词就是对它所指之物的挽歌。
昨夜很晚了我们谈到这些，而在
我朋友的声音里，有一丝悲伤，一种
几乎抱怨的语调。过了一会儿我才明白，
这样谈论下去，一切都会溶解：正义，
松树，头发，女人，你和我。曾有一个女人
我与她做过爱，我记得有时，当我
双手握着她瘦小的肩膀，
我会对她的在场倍感惊奇，
像对盐的渴望，对我童年的河的渴望，
河中有长着柳树的小岛，游船上传来傻气的音乐，
泥泞的地方，我们在那里捉过那种叫作
南瓜籽的橙银色小鱼。这几乎与她无关。
我们说渴望，因为欲望充满了
无尽的距离。我对她而言想必也是如此。
但我记得那么多，她的手如何掰开面包，
她父亲说过伤害她的话，她
做过的梦。有些时刻身体与词语一样
充满灵性，有些日子美好的肉身继续存在。
如此温柔，那些午后与傍晚，
说着黑莓，黑莓，黑莓。
Meditation at Lagunitas
By Robert Hass
All the new thinking is about loss.
In this it resembles all the old thinking.
The idea, for example, that each particular erases
the luminous clarity of a general idea. That the clown-
faced woodpecker probing the dead sculpted trunk
of that black birch is, by his presence,
some tragic falling off from a first world
of undivided light. Or the other notion that,
because there is in this world no one thing
to which the bramble of blackberry corresponds,
a word is elegy to what it signifies.
We talked about it late last night and in the voice
of my friend, there was a thin wire of grief, a tone
almost querulous. After a while I understood that,
talking this way, everything dissolves: justice,
pine, hair, woman, you and I. There was a woman
I made love to and I remembered how, holding
her small shoulders in my hands sometimes,
I felt a violent wonder at her presence
like a thirst for salt, for my childhood river
with its island willows, silly music from the pleasure boat,
muddy places where we caught the little orange-silver fish
called pumpkinseed. It hardly had to do with her.
Longing, we say, because desire is full
of endless distances. I must have been the same to her.
But I remember so much, the way her hands dismantled bread,
the thing her father said that hurt her, what
she dreamed. There are moments when the body is as numinous
as words, days that are the good flesh continuing.
Such tenderness, those afternoons and evenings,
saying blackberry, blackberry, blackberry.