中午刚刚坐下来吃午饭,ICU就page 我,而且是stat,这种情况往往是有病人突然恶化,我赶紧回到ICU。
没想到出状况的竟然是Ms. W,她是80多岁的老太太,严重的心衰,在急诊code了两次,奇迹般地活了下来,而且不断好转,是我们的magic 老太太。她瘦瘦小小的,很安静,说话也很礼貌。
我走进房间,老太太完全紫绀了,呼吸也很费力,两个肺全是啰音,提示着她的心力衰竭又一次加重了。这种情况下,是应该重新气管插管的,但她是no code,就是不抢救的。我把现在的情况解释给老太太听,她奋力地摇头,虽然带着氧气面罩,但是我能依稀听出来她说,let me die with peace。我用力握了握她的手,把氧气调到了最大流量,然后,她就在上帝的手里了。老太太的先生已经去世了,儿子早已失去了联系。房间里只有我和她,还有她沉重凝滞的呼吸声。
这时候另外一个病人也突然恶化了,家人要求全力抢救,房间里熙熙攘攘的医生护士,呼吸技师,病人家属,我们一边交待病情,家属一边大声哭泣。
等到病人稳定下来,我又回到 Ms. W的房间,她已经丧失了意识,只有间歇的挣扎呼吸,和监护仪上的心电图,还在记录着她微弱的生命痕迹。
隔壁房间是繁忙的家属来回走动,打电话联系更多的家属,哭泣声此起彼伏,而这个房间,只有她一个人孤零零地走向死亡。我握起她的手,至少让我,陪她走完人生的最后一程。
最后心跳和呼吸停止了,我关掉了监护仪。她的脸很安详,我没有办法挽回她的生命,但是至少她最后的愿望,die with peace,得到了尊重。至少她最后的一程,有人握着她的手,说再见。
We'll do it all Everything On our own
We don't need Anything Or anyone
If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
I don't quite know How to say How I feel
Those three words Are said too much They're not enough
If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time Chasing cars Around our heads
I need your grace To remind me To find my own
If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told Before we get too old Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am All that I ever was Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where Confused about how as well Just know that these things will never change for us at all
If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
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