please do not worry about me. just please wish me i deserve good things happen to me after what i have been through these years. not just because of what happened recently. i run away from my family into a marriage and a strange country because i have no courage to face the cruel family issue. one lead to another. no courage for the following problems.

这是我打算给朋友的一封回信的一部分，但是删掉了。送给自己。